I started my transitions yesterday with a 12 hour shift at Shadyside, which was nothing compared to critical care. I was, quite frankly, a tad bored. Mostly because I didn’t have my own patient, I just shadowed a nurse all day. But she was really nice and very attentative to her patients, which is important in a nurse.
I’m working there again tonight from 3 – 11, then might be meeting Lib somewhere, but I’m not sure. I’m off tomorrow and am going to try to find a cheap Halloween costume. Hopefully my stupid check will come and I’ll be able to breathe a little easier. I’m so sick of waiting for other people to do their jobs so I can pay my bills and shit.
Last night I got an unexpected phone call from the man I’ve been vaguely referring to, and it wasn’t your typical 3 am phone call. When I woke up and saw who it was, I didn’t asnwer because I assumed it was a booty call. But when he called right back, I decided to answer and ended up hearing about a pretty terrible thing that happened to a member of his family. He actually cried a little, and it kind of made me think that maybe this man is not just interested in what most men are. He has been calling for about a month now, and I’ve only hung out with him twice since we both have really insane schedules. I naturally assume that most men just want ass, but perhaps this one really isn’t looking for a piece. For some reason, I intimidate him or something, and he’s never sure what t say to me. He apologizes frequently and seems to need convincing just as much as I do that there may be some general interest.
I’m a little shocked because I’ve heard some not so good things about him from people who know him, so I’m taking it at face value and one day at a time. I don’t care enough that I’m pretending about anything, meaning I’m not trying to be the perfect, witty, cute, intelligent person I usually try to be when I’m interested in someone. I’m pretty much trying to get through my life, and its been sprinkled with phone calls and texts from someone who seems that he may actually not be what he seems.
I’m not getting my hopes up. I’m still at a loss for what to do about the dating situation because I know what I should be doing, and the ‘I don’t think I’m ready’ excuse is quickly getting old.
That said, I’m going to go get ready for a short 8 hour shift tonight. More later.
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