So what does ‘A Fabulous Mess’ mean? Well… I never seem to be able to take a direct route to anywhere. I never really felt like I knew where I was heading, and I never knew what I really wanted. Some would say that maybe I’ve made a mess of things because I am no where near where I thought I would be at this age and have never been able to make a decision. But, despite all the mistakes I know I have made, I also know that I wouldn’t change a thing. I’ve learned so much about life and myself through everything I’ve done, and, though I may have made a mess, I know that everything will end up fabulous in the end.



Random

I bought a new cell phone. Yes, I know. I’m retarded. But T-Mobile was having a special free upgrade thing that ended tomorrow, and I had a moment of weakness. It’s my birthday gift to myself. It’s fine.

I’m losing my mind, I’m finding it very, very difficult not to communicate with O every day, and I know I need to stop that. I’m trying so hard to keep my head around this, but my heart’s going to let it get away from me. I know it.

I had a few totally random thoughts today…

1. Why is it assumed that lettuce has to be the main ingredient in a salad? Today, I had more celery than lettuce, so my salad consisted of mostly celery. Why did I think that was so odd?

2. Why can you buy 20 oz and 1 liter bottles of water, but you can’t buy 2 liter bottles? And if it’s weird to have a 2 liter bottle of water, then why isn’t it weird to have a 20 oz bottle or a 1 liter bottle?

3. Why did I have to talk myself out of buying a pizza for dinner in order to reward myself for surviving another day and to prepare myself for the shit week I have ahead of me, yet I felt guilty after I ate two Smart Ones, a salad, and a bag of light microwave popcorn today? I didn’t get the pizza. Weigh in is on Wednesday. I’ll keep ya posted.

4. Why is my life becoming a time warp to 2004? Seriously? Details will come, but seriously? All these people that had slowly disappeared are now popping back up. Odd.

All that being said, I’m going to go back to watching my House marathon until inspiration strikes me. Or until family Guy starts at 9.


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Jen, I read an interview of Kim Cattrall in Maclean’s, which is a Canadian newsmagazine. You probably know that the “Sex and the City” movie opens May 30th. Cattrall was asked “Do you think ‘Sex and the City’ was a sort of ‘Mary Tyler Moore Show’ for this generation? Mary was single, urban, working and comfortable with that It was a bit daring at that time.” Cattrall’s reply was interesting. “I agree. I remember that show as the first show that I saw. I remember ‘That Girl’, but I thought that she was such a dingbat. I wanted to be an actress and go to New York too, but she was so perky, I couldn’t really get behind that. When ‘Mary Tyler Moore’ came on the scene, it was a career woman who was dating, single, and had friends, and it was cool. You never really met her family, her family were her colleagues at work.
And then came ‘Sex and the City’, which is friends as family. We didn’t work together but we were this unit of friendship and acceptance and support–and that’s the thing that I believe most women want with their girlfriends in their lives, because I feel that a lot of us give up so much for the men, the family, and the message was different about being single. I mean Mary, to me, was never a happy character. There was something missing, you know? And here it was women who were just like, this is where we are. Let’s have fun. Let’s enjoy it. As difficult as it is–as much as we want those things that you’re taught that you should get by a certain age or you’ll die miserable and alone–it’s about turning it around and making it about the fact that you’re not ready because you don’t want to go there yet. And that’s kind of a great thing to hear.”

Thanks, Bill! I like it.

Happy birthday!

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