So what does ‘A Fabulous Mess’ mean? Well… I never seem to be able to take a direct route to anywhere. I never really felt like I knew where I was heading, and I never knew what I really wanted. Some would say that maybe I’ve made a mess of things because I am no where near where I thought I would be at this age and have never been able to make a decision. But, despite all the mistakes I know I have made, I also know that I wouldn’t change a thing. I’ve learned so much about life and myself through everything I’ve done, and, though I may have made a mess, I know that everything will end up fabulous in the end.



What I did on my birthday, or how i fell into the gap

I am an odd breed because I like chilly weather and rain. I know, I’m weird. So, it was a wonderful thing to wake up on my birthday to a cold breeze and a mist of rain blowing through the window directly onto my face. I smiled as I turned over in bed and hold onto my Spongebob pillow - the softest pillow I’ve ever come into contact with in my whole life.

I decided to treat myself to a new shirt to wear out last night for my big old birthday celebration. I looked at Target because I was trying to stay on the cheap-o side, but I gave up and headed to Lane Bryant, the old standby.

Imagine my shock and awe when all of the shirts were too big for me.

I was lost. If I can’t shop at Lane Bryant, then I’m not sure where to go. I walked around the corner and saw the Gap. I know the heirarchy of the chain stores - Old Navy is below the Gap, which is below Banana Republic. I thought to myself, well, you fit in Old Navy and your bridesmaid dress is from the Banana… why the hell not try? So, I went into the Gap… and the clothes fit me.

This is a major milestone for a chubby girl. I know it seem dumb, but to be able to fit into clothes in a “normal” store, well, it’s a wonderful, amazing feeling. So, I bought a cute tee shirt and an awesome black sweater.

Then I went home and dyed my hair, chocolate brown again. Covered up all the red. As my hair was developing, I watched the finale of Sex and the City OnDemand. Then, I put on my new clothes and used my new make-up and went out to meet my friends and family.

Nothing too exciting happened, mostly just had a lot of fun and drank a lot. Shane took me to Wendy’s at midnight when the luster of the booze had started to get to me, and I spent the night on Mt Washington in the home of two of my besties.

It was actually a great day overall, but a little too much excitement considering Thursday and Friday were my only two nights off sandwiched between a stretch of 4 night shifts and then 3 night shifts, but I work one day out of 6 as of Tuesday, and I am looking forward to some time on my couch with a blanket and a good book.

28 is sucking the fun out of my already.


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